I’m gonna be optimistic

So last night I went to visit Abby and I prepared myself for what I was going to see and say.  In all honesty I forgot everything and just started crying.  I didn’t even recognize her.  The good thing is… she was conscious 🙂 which means there’s hope!

I told her I didn’t know what to say and that I planned to tell her so many things but my mind went blank.  Then out of no where I just said “Hi…Hi Abby ka-dabby” and I got a slight smile out of her but at this point I will take anything.

I also began to tell her that I was sorry I hadn’t come sooner ~ in all honesty I heard she didn’t want visitors since she was down to 68lbs and I wanted to respect her wishes ~ but “F” that I am going to go back and see her.  I think she needs less crying in that room and more funny stories about the day to day clumsy and silly things that happen to me to get her mind off of the pain.

She also gave me two more smiles when I told her my dog says “Hi Auntie Abby” and that she got me into Toronto.  You see I have a fear of criminals and gang violence so I prefer not to venture downtown.  I think she tried to laugh because I heard a funny/coughing sound that came from the tube in her neck.

I will keep y’all posted on her recovery because yesterday just proved that there is hope.

Take care 😛


For Abby…

A few days ago while typing up my last post I started another post but never made it public.  I wasn’t sure if I should.  I have been worried about one of my friends for a while now and today I received some news that just makes you stop doing what you were doing and you realize the fight is over…

“Don’t let go too soon, but don’t hold on too long.”
― Mitch AlbomTuesdays with Morrie

A little background for you: one of my best friends Abby has been in/out of the hospital since July of last year.  As of January she’s been lying in a hospital bed at Mt. Sinai in the ICU.  She initially went in under the assumption it was Lupous and the treatments were not working and she was getting worse.

I was going to start blogging about my day to day life just to keep her up-to-date and when she gets better she could read my posts to find out what she’s missed during her time in the hospital.  I even called it “Hurry up Abby… Abby Ka-dabby”.

Earlier this month she was re-diagnosed with what’s called “Dermatomicosis”  I don’t really know much about this or how to pronounce it but it too is an auto immune disorder similar to Lupous.

Let me tell you a little story…

There’s 5 of us.  We are super great friends that have known each other for ages.  Some of us have known each other longer than others but we all came together for a reason.

That’s Abby in the middle.

I met Abby when I was 17 years old.  She was 16 at the time and she was dating my friend’s cousin whom she later married and had 3 beautiful boys with that are truly amazing young men.  So that means I have known her for a LLLLLOOOOOONNNNGGGG time.  I don’t want to tell you the exact number of years that I have known her for because I don’t want to give away my age :P.

I got to know her soooooo well and I find this amazing… before that day we met X number of years ago, we were strangers.  And now I think of her as a sister and her family as my family and I know she feels the same way about me and my family.  It’s amazing how you can get to know someone so well and share so many awesome moments with and to think there was a time when you didn’t know each other at all.

“Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know.”
― Mitch Albom

But the truth is she won’t get better.  I received a call today to prepare everyone for the worst.  To go and say goodbye to a friend.  In all honesty when I get there I won’t know what to say to her or know if she can hear me.

Sorry about all the Mitch Albom (my favorite author) quotes but I was really hoping to tell her how I came to find Mitch and how he helped me over the past year that was super difficult for me too.  But the one quote that stuck with me is probably what I’m going to say tomorrow when I see her..

“The truth is, once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”
― Mitch AlbomTuesdays With Morrie

I’m at a loss for words today so I am going to make this short and sweet today.  So on that note, take care and good night folks.

Wait…whats going on?

Back in January I signed up for the SMRTCCE class and I never thought I would have a blog.  But here it is and it’s been almost week since my last post and that was for class.

What’s going on?  I’m blogging?  I have been thinking about what I am going to blog about over the past week because I can’t let this spot on the ‘internets’ go to waste.

The past 4 months I met some very interesting people in my class and it’s too bad that not everyone showed for the last class cause you guys missed out on some fun stories and some good looking timbits.  Unfortunately I couldn’t have any that day but I have had my share of timbits that is lol.

Have a good night 🙂

superbowl commercials

Let me get something straight I don’t care for sports that much and nope I didn’t watch the Superbowl but I did hear that there were some funny commercials this year that I just had to share with you.

This is hilarious….

all about Dot….what is Dot? (cont.)

Wow…..I have so much to say about Dot I don’t even know where to start.

She likes toys, cookies and runs.

She hates baths and the word “no”.

I swear she heard that word “no” a lot when she was little she probably thought that was her name.

I think that blogging about her will actually make me talk less about her to my coworkers and they will think I’m less crazy.  Anyways here’s another pic of Dot.  This was taken a few summers ago up at my X’s family cottage.  She loves to swim but I thought it was uber cute and the photo opp was worth the 70$ for the life jacket 🙂